★ The Afterlife ★

I've had enough.

2009-08-09T09:49:52Z

Why is everything fuck up happens to me?
Why not to someone else?
Why the fuck ME?
I know I've been away but I guess I need a place where I can get it all out.
This is getting ridiculously stupid to the point that tears came out of my frickin' eyes.
WHAT. THE. FUCK.

I don't know what I did wrong.
I thought it was never my fault, you started it first.
I know that you just wanna get rid of me.
But heyyy, can't you find another way to do so?
Must it be this wayyyy?

Arghhhhh! I trusted you. I believed you.
I defended you when they all go against you.
Whatever you did, I've always been supporting you.
But this is how you repayyy me.
Treating me like trash, pick me up when I'm useful, throw me away when you don't need me anymore.
FUCK!!!

I don't blame you, no, seriously.
I blame myself for trusting your words, for believing your sweet lies, for defending what is WRONG.

Guhhhh. I just, I don't know what else to say anymore.
You got me where you wanted.
Good for you.
I don't know what's gonna happen tonight.
You'll probably throw me away FOREVER and I'll probably end up in tears again.
But hey, after it all dries up, I'll be stronger.
I swear to you, to your friends, to your family, I'll be stronger.

You'll see.
And you'll hate what you'll see.

Changing...

2009-07-15T08:24:03Z

Oh goshhh! A quick update.
I'm in UPM, doing bachelor of engineering in computer system and communication.
Can't really be online but will be when I get my hands on a Celcom broadband. Yeahhhha.
But till then, laytaaaah ;D

Did you guys win?

2009-06-01T07:06:24Z

I wonder.

30-May-2009 1:22 am
[DANI] adik.esk abg ad botb.doa kn abg.hee

30-May-2009 1:23 am
[ME] Waaa! Beshny abg! Ktne botb tuh?

30-May-2009 1:24 am
[DANI] kat cni2 je..kalo ad recod nati abg msk utube adik tgk ea.2 lagu mlayu.xyakin la bwk lgu eng..

30-May-2009 1:26 am
[ME] Waaa ea keh? Adk pn kt jb neh.. Lgu pe abg? Rcord aa.. Pls!!! *beggng* ngn nbc ea?

30-May-2009 1:27 am
[DANI] oh yeke..bwape?adik kawen ea?haha yela3 abg recod.tu pn klau ad mmbe abg ekut.aah nbc..

30-May-2009 1:30 am
[ME] Eyy tade aa.. Sje lpak2 kt cni lorh.. Okeh2! Lgu pe abg? Kol bpe? Gudluck ea abg! Adk doa an the best 4 ma bro ;)

30-May-2009 1:32 am
[DANI] aa 2 lgu baru kitorg.adk xpna dgna.melody mlm dgn koprat keparat.. thnx adik XOXO

30-May-2009 1:34 am
[ME] Ahaha! Okeh2.. Kol bpe abg? Sok adk cheer kaw2 pny kt abg.. Haha.. Go nbc! Horns up!

30-May-2009 2:02 am
[DANI] sory batri abg kong td.oh um pg2 lg abg kene kua da.kul 8 dafta.. ok2 maseh adik :D

30-May-2009 11:24 am
[ME] Abg! Gudluck ea.. Wishng nbc all da best! Sowie adk bgn lmbt plak.. Cheers! ;)

So Dani' my bro! Did NoBoysCouple win the Battle of the Bands?
Where are you dude? Grrrrr. I wonder wonder wonder.

Hmmmmm.

A Quick Update!

2009-05-30T16:28:20Z

Yeahhh! I know. Shusshhhh!
I'm in Jaybee now, as in Johor Bahru.. yea, like you don't know what Jaybee is.
LMFAO.

Okay.
June 16, PLKN as in National Service in Langkawi.
July, University perhaps?
August, be busy with it I guess?

Another okayyy.

Till I get back home and really BLOG my ass off,

Laytah (:

Please.. Stay awake woman!

2009-03-09T00:41:30Z

Yeah.
I've been up since 7 a.m. and it is SO not cool because I slept at what... 2?
Thanks to my Aman & Dani. Kyaaaaa.
ESPECIALLY Dani. Why lahhh youuu? -_-'
Texted me in the middle of the morning, asking about phone's themes?!!
Lmfao. You're a funneh guy bro (:

Anyway, later on my Mom and I wanna go shopping in Giant!
Hahaha. It's been a while since I last went out with my Mom... miss her a lot but don't tell her!
Err... it'll get weird. Trust me. I always keep these stuffs to myself.
Would be embarrassed to say it directly to her :X

List of things to buy:

~~New clothes~~ (Mom said so! Heehee)
~~Food to bring back to college~~
~~Drinks~~
~~Foolscap papers~~
~~Glue~~ (I forgot I didn't do my assignment for Website Templates yet.. yeah. Handmade!)
~~Scissors~~ (Mine went M.I.A.)
~~Clean and Clear Cleanser~~ LOL
~~Nivea Deodorant~~ :X
Hair bands. Ahaha. EDIT: there's no hair bands that i like. pftttt.

I believe that's it. Ummm. Yeah.
I better go take my shower now. She said we'll be leaving at 9.
9.. yeah. NINE IN THE MORNING WITH MOM GOING SHOPPING!

I love you Mom (:

11:07; Edit:

Bought 'em already. Now I'm off to pack my stuffs and get ready to do the freaking templates! Hahahaha. Hope I can finish it before 5. Wish me luck! (:

Tagggggggged!

2009-03-08T11:01:37Z

I miss these stuffs. LOL. Thanks mad4hana for tagging meh XD

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real. . .nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

Have Fun!!

1. What is your name:
Farhana

2. A four Letter Word:
Fool

3. A boy's Name:
Fred

4. A girl's Name:
Fiona

5. An occupation:
Fire Fighter!

6. A color:
Furplish??? Lmfao!

7. Something you wear:
Footwear? I don't know! F is so hard!

8. A food:
Fish 'n' Chips

9. Something found in the bathroom:
Fingerprints. Lol. On the bathroom mirror!

10. A place:
Finland

11. A reason for being late:
Fooling around with mates. So unreasonable :D

12. Something you shout:
Freaks like me :D

13. A movie title:
Finding Nemo? LOL!

14. Something you drink:
Fresh Orange

15. A musical group:
Finch

16. An animal:
Frog

Anyone can do this, I don't need to tag, do I?
Cheers! Ummm... not really XD

Happy birthday Edmund my Spidermund!

2009-03-08T10:42:33Z

Dear Edmund,
We've been friends like what, 2 years now? Almost, I think.
We went from, Saya-Awak to I-You to the now... By-Hby. Very weird.
You're definitely one of my bestest male friends ^^

And so...

Happy Birthday,
Edmund!
I know you told me you wish this was your 30th birthday.
But hby, you're turning 21! Face it XD
You're young.. I know you wanna be old.
GRANDPA!
Well, I might not be with you anymore when you're 30.
So be good, aite?
By loves you Hby (:

Edmund! Kmk mok ktk jaga dr baek2.. Sik mok keja twok2 glak, okeh?

The Day I Turned 18..

2009-03-08T09:39:23Z

Yayyyy!
I managed to turn 18.. pwhahaha!
What a sentence! Ngeee XD
I gotta tell ya.. now.. I.. can feel the feelings of being old.
I mean, 18?!! Legal age as my schoolmates called it (:
I missed them T.T

Anyway,
Thanks so much for the wishes.. I had fun receiving non-stop of messages even before the 14th.
Hahaha.. Maddy called, my Kawaii Tashie called, Leoj called but I was on the line with my sis.. tskkkk.

& my DREAMERS wished too! On Facebook! And my el-jae friends, you guys were awesome!

&& I got pressies! I didn't expect though.

I got these 2 teddies (ignore Patrick back there ^^ ). The brown one's from my roommate K.Anas.
The huge pink one is hontouni kawaii, yea? XD

This one is from my beloved sistahhh, GD.. She got me this.. and I need to ~~feel~~ fill it up XD

&&& I got another gift from my other roommate, K.Hasdah.
She gave me a pretty snowglobe(?) like in My Girl.. Uhhh.. like Da Hae's.
The one Dong Wook gave to her. Almost like that one.
Except for the light. But it has music XD

Well, turning 18 was something. It felt weird that I celebrate it in college.
Sighhhh. Well, I'm PRE-GROWN UP now XD

Happy birthday Yunho oori leader-sshi!

2009-03-08T08:52:43Z

I know I'm late.. the date's just a made-up.
But hey, I WILL WISH YOU NO MATTER WHAT, YUNHO-YAH!

Happy Birthday,
Jung Yunho!

생일축헤요~!

I hope you're happy always with the members.
Treat Jaejoong right, yea?
You're doing a good job there..
Ahem.. based on the airports pics! XD
We love you Yunho!

I am soooo relieved!

2009-01-26T12:38:32Z

Regarding this post that made me panicked like hell. Well.. yeah, he texted me.

His brother went to check up those guys and no one died. But the guy that he stabbed is in hospital, but he's fine.

He's fine.

"HE'S FINE THAT GUY'S NOT DEAD
FARHANA YOU CAN GO GAGA NOW!!!!"

Phewww. I felt so relieveddddd. He told me not to worry anymore. Well, now I can listen to him (:

A Quick Birthday Messages..

2009-01-26T05:42:22Z

Happy Birthday,
KIM JAEJOONG!
Eat well.
Be happy with ~~Yunho~~ TVXQ especially your Yunho.
Make 2009 a year full of JAEHO!
Uhh.. that came out selfish XD
We love you sayanggg~!
Hehe.

생일 축하 합니다,
재중 오빠!

& not to forget to my friend, Ain. Happy 19th birthday, woman!

Happy 19th and 20th Birthday to you guys~!

2009-01-24T06:17:42Z

Happy 20th Birthday to Sha a.k.a. Mama!

You're an amazing singer.. definitely. For sure you're gonna win KMPP Idol! We F2P5 will surely support you alllll the way!

&&

Happy 19th Birthday to Dani a.k.a. Abg Dani'! Haha XD

I owe you a LOT Dani. Thanks for everything, you're like a real bro to me! Really, thanks soooo much. Nanti ajak aku gi gig NoBoysCouple, okay? Aku akan jadi the biggest fan of NBC :D

P/s: Too many birthdays this year -_-'

Happy 19th Birthday, Aizat bushyukkk!

2009-01-24T05:56:09Z

Happy 19th Birthday, Aizat!

Go get yourself a new glasses or something but don't go asking me for a ~~Harry Potter Books Collection~~ or whatsover because I ain't got no money $$$ for that! Haah! And aren't you superrr loaded, my friend? Ngeee. Guys these days.

MUET results

2009-01-24T05:37:05Z

You know, my roommate, Auji.. literally killed me the night MUET results got out.. HAHA! Bell and her were like, "Cepat la Na check! Meh aku tolong message kn, bagi je IC ang..." and I was like, "Jangaaaaaaan!" Screaming like hell eventhough it was 1:00 ++ in the morning! Haha.. I screamed so loud that I think my lungs would popped out! Ngeeee.

So yeah, after series of screaming and waving mad like hell, she checked it. But I read the message first.

BAND ACHIEVED: 4

And I started screaming again :D

P/s: Not that awesome but I can settle with that.

NEW year, NEW ahem?

2009-01-24T05:22:33Z

It's a new year, yeah,, I'm sooooo late. But hey, changed the date, nothing else matters! Happy New Year! It's not just a new year to me, because I got something else's new... Haha XD Maybe I'll tell later. Till then, cheers! :D

xxx

THE FEUD: Lady Vengeance vs Mister Metalhead!

2009-01-20T08:22:56Z

This feud happened in SMS. Yeah, TEXT MESSAGING. They're sooo childish, whoever they are.

LADY VENGEANCE vs MISTER METALHEAD

[insertname]. Forget me. Bye. Have fun.

... after a long while...

No dont!!! Wait 4 me.. Juz a lil whle.

U dont love me! U lied! I cant believe i actually trust u. Goodbye my darling. I alwiz lve u. Bt what i get? Bunch of lies. Hha. I alwiz ended up as a foo.

Lady V made a phone call and they fought on the phone until Lady V slammed Mr. M on the phone, saying "Suit yourself."

I hate u! Ur da 1 who alwys wnted 2 end dis, rite?! Wat did i alyws say? Dun ever doubt me! Juz trust me! Bt u did d opposite! Whn i said, i love u, i rlly mean it! If i dun, id end dis long ago! U mde me feel lyk an idiot, alwys syin ily bt u nvr blieve me!! Fine. Suit urself.

I knew it! U hate me! Im a dirty drunkard! Fine! When i doubt i dnt doubt by jst talkin shit! U dnt hav a bf aite? N u kwn je ngn suma org. N ape name wak ek? Kte lupe?? U nver do mean it when u said those!! N i tot u were the one! N i tot im goin to change ma way of life all bcoz of u! Yes, i alwiz doubt. Bt ths time.. Its jst too clear. Fine!! Suit ma fucken self!! Thanks 4 ths precious moment!! But no thx. Ths all is jst a lie! I alwiz love u bt wtf am i? Just a damn drunkard. Thx vry much darlin. Ill jst b ma old self n ruin me fucken life! U dnt even care ryte!! Im sry i shout.

Yeah ryte. Lyk u evn care if u shout or not. Its alwys me rite? Its alwys all ma fuckin fault rite?!! I told u da truth. JAN! Im frens wit evry1! Y is dat so wrong?! Or mayb ur da 1 who fake evrything!!! U nvr rlly lyke me, u cn easily get sum1 MUCH bttr than me rite?!! Admit it!! Dun bother clling me. Im nt ready 2 talk 2 sum1 who dun blieve evry fuckin thng i saidn lterally call me a LIAR!

So what if i love shouting?!! I shout at u? I cnt blieve u actually tlkd to jan. N wait. Arnt u spposd to b busy?? Naa. U lied to me. Jan da besepai. Go n get hm. U care abt him nt me aite? Da bpe lma u guys hookd up? I nvr thnk of gettn sum1 else! I jst wnt u! Abs wat apa i susa2kn dri i utk u?! U yg tryn to fnd sum1 btter than i am! Im a sinner i knw! Bt dnt u lie to me! Evrythn hppen i nver blame u! I blame maself 4 trusn u!! Im such a fool!

So u mean i cnt b trusted. I get it. Im sorry i made u mad. Im sorry i made ur life fuckin worse. Im sorry u knew sum1 shit like me. Im sorry u dun trust me. Im sorry u thnk im a liar. Im sorry u thnk im a fuckin cheap bitch dat will hook up wit evry single guy dat she met. Im sorry u hate me now. Im sorry i dun get it earlier. Go ahead. Curse me all u want. Fuck? Shit? Bitch? Bastard? Babi? Cibai? Moron? All perhaps? Im sorry i made u curse.

Stop sayin sorry. U relly srious wit me? Why woudnt u answer?

Mr. M called Lady V but Lady V just didn't wanna pick up.

Y wud u wanna talk 2 me if u dun evn blieve a fckin thng i said?

Bcoz im fuckin srious that i love u! Are u??? Huh.

It doesnt mtter. Ull nvr blieve me.

U wnt to put an end to all of tis ryte? Fine erase ma name on ur book! U dnt rlly wnt us to b togther ryte? [insertname] if u rly love me. Care calln me nw??

I dun undrstnd. Wat wud i get if i cll? I will only get u shoutng at me, syin dat all i did is tellin lies, n dat i nver rlly love u. Im a liar, dis n dat. IT HURTS! u understnd? IT FUCKIN HURTS!

Cll me. I wan to knw the truth. I wont shout.

I dun wanna hear it anymore.. I dun wanna hear u shout anymre.

I said i wont shout. I feel bad. I pukol jan. I shoutd at u. N i hurt u. Will u cll me o not? I cnt stand to c u hurt. Cll me [insertname]. Wil u?

Ill cll u at 11.

Ill wait.

Love sure is weird these days -_-'

I did... average. Huhh.

2009-01-20T06:34:15Z

So, yeah.. first semester's results.. I suck. But at least I got A for Physics! For the first time in my life since I've learned Physics, I got freaking A! Hahaha.. don't care if it's A or A-, it's still A dummies.. haha. No offense, not saying to anyone in particular. So, ehmm.. my PNGK for this 1st sem? 3.00 . Quite satisfied because I thought I should get lower than that. Note to self: I did't really study :X

Help Me Please!

2008-12-06T00:16:23Z

Okay, so dear my f-lists. All you have to do is answer this question, and give reasons to support your answer. Ready?

"What would you rather be; wise or intelligent?"

RAYA celebration!

2008-11-21T14:54:03Z

It took me a longgggg while to post this up since I'm oh so very busy. Yeap yeap. LOL. On hiatus with fics (both reading and writing) because I'm so caught up with studies. Sighhhh. Annnnyway.. pictures during Raya Celebration on the 14th of October in KMPP.

Together at our F2P5 Tent. Hahaha.. We decorated it like hell the night before. Until 12 a.m. you know?!! Hahaha XD Bwat ketupat punya pasal. Aiyoo.

Look at that Farid Kamil in the centre~! Gila betul diorng neh.. I'm pretty sure that's MY kmpp scarf he took. Sighhhhhhh.

Haha. I stole Naz's fan.. it was pretty damn hot that day~ HOT HOT ~~HEAT~~ HOT!

With Durriyah a.k.a. Yang and her friends I supposed. I don't know them but the left guy is called Fahmi I believe.. and the one beside me is Anip? I dunno -_-'

With Merol a.k.a. Prof. He's soooooo good in Physics people called him Prof. LMFAO XD He's got something going on with my friend, Ila. Wonder what it is... heh.

With Fahim, he's in the same practicum as Prof.. F2P8.

With Bob.. hehe. My bro~! ~~Bro la sangaaaaat!~~

Aizaaaaat! Get your hand off my shoulder!!!! RAWWWWRRRR~! Unfortunately, we came matching that day T.T

... and since we're matching.. we.. NO I DIDN'T EAT THE KUIH! No wayyy.

With Ain.. the girl from Nibong Tebal. Aizat's from there, too. Bob put his songkok on my head. LMFAO.

With Dani. Look at me, VERY awkward position. Heh.

Another one.. just because he wore Bari's glasses and looked.. DIFFERENT. Hahaha.

This was what our table looked like, but bigger.. Minus Aizat's phones, too. Suka nak enterframe btul la~!

With Bear from F2P4.. Aini's friend who became my friend, too~!

With Amer, same practicum with Bear. I kinda like to '~~USHA~~' him.. Jem, hint hint. He's that SHAWTTTTY. *winks* Don't know why but I like to scanning around the lecture hall for him.. he's getting stylo now. LOL.

Haha.. our signboard~! Come and enter the tent of F2P5! Ahaha. LAME!

With Popo. Lol. Okay so that's not really his real name but who cares? He's in F2P6 btw.

With Fazrul a.k.a. Jerul. He's in F2P7.

With Fatin, my MUET partner.. hahaha~! We spoke crazilly during MUET speaking.. gaga.

With Wani, the fashionista in F2P5.

I LOVEEEEE THIS PICTURE! Why??? Because it was sooooo hard to convince him to take pictures and I got one!!! Yayyyy~! This is Aliff a.k.a. Cshy. He's REAAAALLY shy, believe me.

LMFAO. Clearly Dani and I are camwhores XD Pardon mehh. Hehe. Cshy you can join too if you want~!

And last one, saigo....

Ta-dah! They made me happy.. Everytime I look at them, my practicum mates, I remember my Convent buddies. How we had SO much fun when we're in school. Sighhhhh.
I miss you guys damn it!

Meme for Youyou. Make sense? No? Shushhh =D

2008-08-22T14:05:51Z

Well, I got tagged by my lovelehhhh beta-er,

angelofsouls ! Lol. It's a long meme, but VERY interesting indeed XD Here goes ~~nothing~~ something~!

→o1. Bold what is true about you.
→o2. Underline what is half true.
→o3. Italicize what you wish were true about you.
→o4. Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
→o5. Tag five LJ friends.
→o6. Ask me anything about the bold/italicized/underlined.

• I miss somebody right now.
• I don't watch much TV these days.
• I own lots of books. (Magazines aren't books right? -_-' )
• I wear glasses or contact lenses.
• I love to play video games.
• I've tried marijuana.
• I've watched porn movies. (Uhmmm.. guilty?)
• I have been the psycho ex in a past relationship.
• I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
• I curse sometimes. ('Fuck' is my favvvvourite word unfortunately..)
• I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
• I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
• I have broken someone's bones. (That'd be awesome, ne?)
• I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (I'm not so sureee..)
• I hate the rain.
• I'm paranoid at times.
• I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
• I need/want money right now. (Alwaysss!)
• I love sushi.
• I talk really, really fast. (I usually drag my words.. sighhh)
• I have fresh breath in the morning.
• I have long hair.
• I have lost money in Las Vegas.
• I have at least one sibling.
• I was born in a country outside of the U.S. (Malaysian-born fighter LOL)
• I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
• I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
• I like the way that I look.
• I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (Sorrrry T.T )
• I am usually pessimistic.
• I have a lot of mood swings.
• I think prostitution should be legalized.
• I have slept with a roommate. (I didn't get this one...)
• I have a hidden talent.
• I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
• I have a lot of friends.
• I have pecked someone of the same sex.
• I enjoy talking on the phone.
• I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
• I love to shop and/or window shop. (But it suckkss when you don't have $$$ )
• I'm obsessed with my Xanga or LiveJournal. (Ain't it obvious???)
• I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. (I can hate, too... y'know...)
• I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
• I have a cell phone.
• I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
• I've rejected someone before. (And I regret it now.. sighhh.)
• I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
• I want to have children in the future.
• I have changed a diaper before.
• I have a lot to learn.
• I am shy around the opposite sex.
• I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
• I have at least 5 away messages saved.
• I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
• I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
• I own the "South Park" movie. (Don't ask me why.. it's a loooong time ago!)
• I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or LiveJournal.
• I enjoy some country music.
• I would die for my best friend(s).
• I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
• I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
• Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
• I have dated a close friend's ex.
• I am happy at this moment.
• I'm obsessed with guys. (Dong Bang boys are guysss... ne ne ne?)
• Democrat.
• Conservative Republican.
• I am punk rockish. (A longgggg way to go!)
• I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
• I study for tests most of the time.
• I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
• I can work on a car.
• I love my job.
• I am comfortable with who I am right now.
• I have more than just my ears pierced.
• I walk barefoot wherever I can.
• I have jumped off a bridge.
• I love sea turtles.
• I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
• I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
• I am proficient on a musical instrument.
• I hate office jobs.
• I went to college out of state.
• I am adopted.
• I am a pyromaniac.
• I have thrown up from crying too much.
• I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
• I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.
• I adore bright colors.
• I usually like covers better than originals.
• I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebee's and T.G.I. Fridays.
• I can pick up things with my toes.
• I can't whistle.
• I have ridden/owned a horse.
• I still have every journal I've ever written in.
• I talk in my sleep.
• I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
• I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
• I wear a toe ring.
• I have a tattoo.
• I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
• I am a caffeine junkie.
• I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
• If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
• I've cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.
• I have been to over 15 conventions.
• I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
• I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
• I'm an artist. (sadly, am not T.T )
• I am ambidextrous.
• I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
• If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
• I have terrible teeth. (But I have no problems with it )
• I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
• I have more friends on the Internet than in real life.
• I have lived in either three different states or countries.
• I am extremely flexible.
• I want to own my own business.
• I smoke.
• I spend way too much time on the computer. (Not anymore and it suckssss)
• Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (My bestie called me a freak once,... or twice, maybe thrice..)
• Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (last night I cried reading Yunjae's fic... suckerrrr!)
• I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
• I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
• I don't like it when people are displeased or seem displeased with me.
• I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
• I have played strip poker with someone else before.
• I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
• I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
• I can't stand being alone.
• I have at least one obsession at any given time.
• I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
• I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
• I'm a judgmental asshole.
• I'm a HUGE drama queen.
• I have traveled on more than one continent.
• I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
• I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
• I can speak more than one language.
• I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
• I would rather read than watch TV.
• I like reading fact more than fiction. (Nooooo wayyyyyyy~!)
• I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
• I have no piercings.
• I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
• I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
• I've been married and am now divorced.
• There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
• I like most animals better than most people. (I wanna be a vet dammit!)
• I own a collection of retro game consoles.
• The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
• I have hit someone with a dead fish.
• I have written/read erotic stories.
• I am compulsively honest.
• I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
• I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers. And not been ashamed.
• I have gone from wishing I was a boy to reveling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
• I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
• I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
• I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
• I dislike milk.
• I obsessively wash my hands.
• I always carry that something significant around with me.
• Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
• I love talking about myself to the point where I need to be stopped.
• I often sing whenever I can, and I'm good at it too. (I'm not THAT good at it :P )
• I have experienced some type of traumatic abuse in my lifetime.
• I've experienced visions and dreams which I know/believe are from my past life.
• I have deja vu so vivid that I feel faint.
• I love Harry Potter.
• My parents are not together.
• I don't believe in love.
• I hate people who walk incredibly slow. ( I often curse because of this..)
• I have extreme contempt for the vast majority of people.
• Sometimes I don't shower before work.
• To me, procrastination is like a disease!
• I want to sleep now.
• I enjoy watching two guys kissing each other. (I'm officially a sinner... OHNOESSS!)
• I am a typical Gemini born.
• The more I searched the less I found.
• As a child, I was a huge crybaby.
• I'm feeling alone very fast.
• I'm living in a fairytale and I'm the noble princess who saves the day!
• I always have to spell my (real) name.
• I want to die in my sleep. (less hurting... for sure!)
• I have a strange laugh.
• If they let me, I can sleep 12 hours in a row.
• I wish I could transform myself into a boy every now and then.
• I dance in the rain and don't feel like a fool.
• I have a favorite stuffed animal that I will not ever get rid of.
• I can get jealous easily!
• My computer and hard drive are pretty much my most prized possessions.
• I'm on at least two types of medication.
• Provided with snacks, I could eat the whole day and not stop.
• I believe in the End of the World and that it's nearing.
• I had near death experiences before.
• I'm a hypocritic person.

And now I tag:

boohoshi
mad4hana
tashie_shaxx
sari_prix
rourietosama

Stooopid so-called Tooth-fairy!

2008-08-21T07:45:28Z

Urghhhh. I have toothache. Is that what they call it? Toothache? Uhhh.. I guess so. LOL. Well, I'm still at home~! Yaaaay! But going back to ~~fucking~~ college this Sunday. Sighhh. Why are holidays soooooo short compared to the period you have to studystudystudy? It's killing mehhhhh! *is being emo for 5 secs*

Okay, I'm back. LMAO. Ohhhh. I found something when I was going through my pictures and stuffs.

From left: My 5th sis Mrs. Kwon Ji Yong, me Mrs. Oh-Yunjae! lol, my late sis Xiah Keera (Junsu's in good hands of Yoochun, sis!), and my DAD!

Haha. Oldies attack! I love this pic because I love the 2/3/4 year-old me. Gagagaga. No, seriously! Okay okay, enough babbling about ~~nothing~~ this.

Just to tease you guys, I'm currently ENJOYING myself while writing Deal's last chapter.. I just hope I won't disappoint you guys. Haha. Till then, as Tiger would always say,

"TTFN, Ta-Ta For Now~!"
P/s: I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee NEW YUNHO! *coughstheyunjaeGIFisfuckinghotcoughs*. Good on you, Yunho.. you made the 1st move... and you sent me to 윤재 heaven~!

Farewell, bestie~!

2008-06-23T14:22:20Z

Huhu T___T *cries hysterically*

My bestie ever since I was in Convent is going to leave me all by myself in this ever so isolated *ahem* college.

Yep, Afiqah's leaving me to UiTM in Permatang Pauh if I'm not mistaken. It shuckkkkks man. I was always with her and now we're going to study in different places. Eventhough I barely see her in here, since we are off different courses, but still... I'd see her in Cafes or along the way sometimes.

Now that she'll leave tomorrow, maaaaaannnnn! I don't know what I'm going to do. It must be really weird. Urghhhh. I'm so stress out.

"Let's all take a course on STRESS management!"

Life in College So Far...

2008-06-21T04:49:37Z

First, let me get this straight... I've been schooling in all-girls school since I was 7 and now that I'm 17 and in college, I have to learn how to mix with the guys. For a first timer, I think I did pretty good so far. LMAO. No, seriously!

Apparently, I'm the youngest in the practicum. Yep. Cuz no one else is 91-ers. The oldest is 88-er.. we sorta called him Abang Long or Abe Mi.. lol. He always ask my friend and I for a freaking Dentyne. *cringe*

Anyway, my new friends in college are awesome, too. I'm glad I'm part of the group.. At this time around, my besties are Ila (Selangor), Aini (Perak) and Naz (Kedah). When we're together, ohnoes, it became so NOISY! LOL. We laughed a LOT~! Like, a LOTTTT! And I know I should control it since I'm no longer with girls only... sighhhh.

The things I hate about being in Penang Matriculation College is that the foods are expensive! Seriously, you won't last with only RM100 for a week. It's insane, right? That's what I thought too. -___-'

The 2nd is that the schedule is fucking pack. Oh yeah. And you have to do all the tutorials and workshops and consolidations and jotters and reports and projects.. oh.

And we have DINAMIKA KEMAHIRAN. It's a silly subject if you ask me. You learn about how to eat, how to dress well, the manners basically. And we have to do a project about Malaysia for this. Gahhhh.

Anyway, I wonder what my colleague will do if they know I own a journal? Kahahaha. Let's not wonder anymore.

Till then. TTFN~!

xxx

Busy me~!

2008-06-08T05:24:39Z

Daaaaaaarn it. I'm so busy. I can't keep up with Dong Bang AND most importantly JAEHO T_____T

That's it for now.

xxx

Things I'm Missing Out~!

2008-05-23T15:51:29Z

Pfffffttttt. I missed out on a LOT of things. It sucks like hell not knowing what's going on. First of all, what the fuck happened to my e-Heaven?????? Owh, FYI, my e-Heaven is jaeho_detox.. Did someone delete it? Or FLAGGED it? I swear I'd kill that someone if I knew who she/he is. GRRRRRRRRR. This is really getting on my nerves!

Secondly, I've just watched Young Bae's new MV [credits goes to Mrs. Kwon Ai Kara] and OH EM GEE~! He's sooooooooo smokin' hot! My baby Taeyang, he's sooooo amazingggggg! *gets brick for calling Taeyang her baby XD * But seriously, I was like drooling over his hot figure and oooooh, the dances! *flails* I won't talk much about his voice because yeah, EVERYONE knows he has such an awesome voice ^___^

And then we have Shinee, SM new group. My 2 sisters are spazzing like crazy about these guys.. Ahem. They're noona to these guys so don't worry XD I mean, c'mon.. I'm their noona, too~! 14, 15? Daaaaaarn. That's young! Hahaha. Or maybe I'm old :X NAAAAAHHHHHHHH~!

Anyway, I'm currently addicted to BL Anime.. hehe. I know, from Manga, I moved on to Anime just for a fun change =) I've bought one so far, and is currently trying to find the good ones.. So, does anyone has any BL anime to recommend? Prettttttty pleaseeeeeee *puppy eyes*

Oh, and hi to my f-lists~! *waves* I'm sorry I haven't been keeping in touch because right now I'm really busy. I promise I'll get back to you when everything starts to cool down, okies? =D